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Yay! I voted! The first step in getting dump out of office. Let’s hope all goes well in November and we get a new president. We need that POS out of office. He should have never been president.

I am not too excited about the Democratic candidates–too old–but I’ll take any (or either) of those over dump any day.

I voted Bernie in the last primary, and in this one too. I don’t think he has a chance in hell of winning the nomination but I like his ideas. I like Biden but he is too middle of the road for me. I really want our nation to be more progressive. I really liked Andrew Yang or Elizabeth Warren but they didn’t do well in earlier primaries. I don’t know. Even if Bernie gets the nomination and wins the presidency, I don’t think he will have a chance in hell of implementing many of his ideas. Our nation is just not ready to move forward. Too many people think progressiveness is bad and they fear socialism, not realizing that we utilize many forms of socialism already. E pluribus unum!

I am disgusted with people right now. I am especially disgusted with our nation. I cannot stand Donald Trump, who I will henceforth refer to as dump. I cannot believe so many people actually voted for his dumb ass and through our antiquated way of doing things in this country, he won the election in 2016. He didn’t win the vote but he won the election. Now it is 2020 and he is still in office, even after being the worst president imaginable. So what if the economy is good, well, supposedly good. It is only good for some–the rich–not all. I think it is so-so for the vast majority of us. Shitty still, for too many. Yeah, jobs are up but there still isn’t enough good jobs to go around. People have to work 2 or more jobs to make ends meet or get ahead…or work a whole lot of overtime if they are lucky enough to get it. Wages, well wages still suck but supposedly they are keeping pace with inflation (or just about). I think I heard that. It doesn’t feel like it. The rest of the country is in the toilet. We are a divided nation. Too many people are ignorant and don’t value education, though even if they did, our education system sucks. Higher education is too costly and the payoff isn’t there any more. Healthcare sucks–to many going without care they need, too many vulnerable people. And too many people don’t care. They just don’t care. Their attitude is, “I got mine,” so basically fuck the rest. Thoughts and prayers, thoughts and prayers. Oh, I hate religion too. Our country is filled with hypocrites and Christians are the worst of them. And dump and all his followers (I call them trumphumpers), they like to think they are the best Christians and want our nation to be held to their values…only their values suck. They are judgmental and tribal. They are xenophobic values, racist values, sexist values. They want to take us back the “the good old days” of the 1950s only they don’t care that those good old days weren’t so good for everybody. Viva la oppression, viva la patriarchy, (fuck) baise la liberté!! We only want freedom for those that believe in Jesus, white Jesus, the patriarchy, and rich men, (big business/corporations)and capitalism (the almighty Dollar) as our true ideal. Keep us ignorant and looking toward the imaginary Father in the sky for all the answers, and keep working, earning those almighty dollars to show yourself as a productive member of society. Yes, viva la stupidite aussi. But fuck the teachings of Jesus yet in Jesus’s name we pray.

So fucking done with American “values”–lets work hard for the man so the man can fucking screw us. That’s what were here for, isn’t it. To be screwed and only that. Grab ’em by the pussy.

Disgusting/Disgusted.

And,

frustrated.

Frustrated with myself for playing along with the system. Frustrated for being a good consumer and racking up debts. Frustrated I keep making the same mistakes. Frustrated I bought into the American dream but the dream had become a nightmare before I realized it.

Frustrated with life right now.

I love my blog. I feel like writing more right now. I hope it lasts because the more I write, the more I want to write, and the more I do write, and I write more than just in this, my mundane blog. I do love this type of writing though, journaling, and like I’ve said before, the blogging format keeps it easy and accessible. I feel it is worth repeating the above for anyone who cares as well as this: Per my About Me page, this is my personal and eclectic blog about nothing in particular but the trials and tribulations of my daily life. I don’t know if it is of interest to anyone but me (or if it will ever be) nor do I care. It is for me but if I have a reader or readers and it can help someone or amuse someone (or even change someone’s mind about me or something) then that is a bonus, so be it. I don’t write anything shocking or informative…though through the years I have played with ideas of writing a more directed and themed blogs. Overall I am generally too lazy to write that type of blog but I am thinking about it again. This time I am thinking about a blog about learning the tarot cards. I think that would be fun. Maybe I’ll pair it with a YouTube channel. That would be something new for me. It all comes down to how long I will feel like writing and if I will have the energy for it. Maybe if I think of it as a job, and schedule time for it, I will be more successful. I should do it. Blog love!

I received my bucket list book. Looks really cute but it and another book I ordered arrived wet!! I have to send them back. Amazon is sending my replacements but c’mon! Why did they package books in an envelope that wasn’t waterproof and why did the mail main leave my stuff on the porch to get all wet? Stupid!

I wish I would have been into working in my 20s as I am now. Working 60 hours a week now isn’t all that terrible to me now but in my twenties I was lucky if I was able to work 40 hours and still have my sanity. Of course, having jobs you like does make a difference. IDK…wish I would have found jobs I like way back then and I’d be much farther ahead. Still working toward my passion though.

I was sick yesterday. I had to miss work and I am so pissed that I missed those hours. Irritated. I was fine Saturday, my day off, until about 11pm…Intestines started feeling a bit swirly, then I started having watery diarrhea. In the middle of the night I puked my guts out, or so I thought. That is not like me. I usually don’t even vomit…

Oh, but I wasn’t finished. I went into work feeling like death. Sat around for almost an hour hoping to feel better. I didn’t even start my van. I went to bathroom and puked some more–got some on my uniform. I knew I was done at that point. I had to get someone to come in and work for me. Luckily someone did.

I stayed in bed all day Sunday. I even ordered my groceries–needed broth and Vernor’s. I didn’t eat anything all day yesterday regardless. Now I am feeling better. Yay! But why did I have to miss a day of work? Booo!

Now I am ready to work and it is my day off. I have 2 off in a row, though I still go into McDonald’s for 3 hours each morning. I guess I will have to work on getting stuff done around the house.