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Here is an article about the MCC commencement on Saturday. I graduated too! Woohoo! 

 

 

I can’t believe it it is over. I was so emotional (so emotional lately) – I am such a dork. I almost lost it after I got my diploma. I like what the speakers had to say, especially Janice Costea. She graduated with top honors. She is an older student. Her basic message was you have to know failure in order to enjoy your successes. I guess she was fired from a job she had held for 13 years and that spurred her to go back to school to find out what she really wanted to do with her life. The keynote speaker, Michael Hanson (President, Michigan Community College Association), made a funny. He taught everyone some Latin – "SEMPRE UBI SUB UBI" which means………………………"Always wear underwear." Yeah, a message to carry with me through the ages, haha. He didn’t say nothin’ about them being clean.

 

We had a small party after commencement – pretty much just family. It was nice. My husband did a great job planning everything. We originally were going to have the party outside but it was rainy after graduation so we were all indoors. It was nice though. Toward evening there was a rainbow, which thrilled me. Everybody said that is a good sign and I believe it was. It also made me think of my Auntie Iris. She died many years ago. We were very close. Rainbows remind me of her because: for one, her name means rainbow  and on my birthday, within the year of her death, there was a rainbow. I always like to think it was a present from my Auntie. She wouldn’t miss giving me a birthday present! It wouldn’t seem so strange except that my birthday is in December; how many rainbows do you see in December? So whenever I see a rainbow on or around a special time in my life I feel like Aunt Iris is thinking of me. I know she has been with me throughout my struggles in school, well, she has been with me for life, really.

  

 

Now it is on th the next phase of my education. I need to decide where I am going and exactly what degree I want to pursue! That is my task for the summer. I need a new catchy slogan/mantra.

 

2008

halfway to my Bachelors degree

1/3 of the way towards a Masters degree in Psychology

and Lord knows how long until I get my doctorate!

 Yippee! School is done for now. I found out today that I got a 98% on my Algebra final. I have a 4.0 in that class. That is awesome; math is not my best subject. The teacher, Jo Stewart is a great teacher.

That means I have 3 classes that I have 4.0s in this semester. My cumulative GPA is now 3.871. Woohoo! I worked my butt off for my 4.0’s.

One stinkin’ class is messing up my dream of making it on the all 4.0 Dean’s List – that "Reading Popular Culture" class. I have about a 2.5 in that class (which is a C/C+) and I worked my butt off in that class too. That is unacceptable to me. The professor is giving me the chance to improve some of my papers and finish up the coursework this summer. I think I am going to take him up on that because I want to do better and I need to work on my critical writing skills. If I don’t have the stress of 3 other classes then maybe I can do some good work in that class. There really was a lot of work for this class. In addtition to required reading, we had to do about 2 discussion posts a week (at least 250 words) and respond to other classmates posts. We had to write 3 short papers (at least 3 to 4 pages) and 2 longer papers (about 5 to 7 pages +) with presetations of a summary of our paper. Yikes. I did well on my posts and one of the short papers but the rest of it … it was just too much. I am going to try it again. It will be beneficial to me to really work my writing skills to gear up for the next phase of my education.

Tonight, my parents, my husband and I attended Graduate Honors Banquet. It was really nice. It was at the Sarvis Center in Flint. It wasn’t a dinner but there were hors d’oeuvres, which were very good and filling. The MCC Jazz Combo played and they were awesome. All people graduating with GPA’s of 3.5 or above received an Honors Pin. My Dad commented on how many of the Honors Graduates were older than the average graduate. I am glad actually. The 2 top award winners were in their 50s at least. It gives me hope because I am getting a late start. I am not the only one, heehee. I guess I sometimes feel bad because I wanted to be much further along at this point in my life but I am not going to worry about it anymore. You do what you got to do. I am proud of myself – I can’t believe I made it this far. Graduation is this Saturday!! It has been a lot of work but I feel I am finally on the right track.

Another thing I have to work on is learning how to sell/promote myself. There were so many scholarships/awards I could have applied for but I didn’t because I am a dork and sell myself short. I think about my age and that the awards are for younger students. I was talking to the head of the Psych Department at Mott and she was telling me about a Psych Award I could have applied for. She seemed kind of anxious that I had not heard about it. She said they try to get the word out but it is hard to reach everyone. I guess a lot of people are like me and don’t apply for awards they might be eligible for. I am not going to make that mistake in the next phase of my education.

 Now for the best part of the day. When my husband and I got home he had a surprise for me – he gave me a pair of diamond earrings for a graduation present!  Aaaawwwww, he is so sweet and thoughtful. He shouldn’t have done that – he has done so much already. I couldn’t have made it through school without his support, and there is so much more school to go. My earrings are very pretty though. I am wearing them to graduation.

UGH! I have a paper and presentation to do for the class I dislike (Reading Pop Culture) and I can’t seem to find the inspiration to do it. I was thinking about doing the presentation on simulated sex – guys and porno/people and sex toys/fake boobs and penile implants, etc – but I think that might be too risque for the class. It is on topic though. I was talking to a classmate and she said that it might be too close to what we have discussed already. I think there is more ground to cover on that topic; I actually think the topic might be too broad for just one paper/presentation. Plus, I am a little scared about the presentation part. I don’t think I can go into class and show porn sites and sex toys.  This was my origianl inspiration (warning -adult site)  http://www.realdoll.com/ I saw a program on HBO a few years ago about these dolls. It is just too weird but I think it kind of illustrates Baudrillard’s theory of simulation. This class is so complicated! I have really had a hard time with it. I think part of the reason is I tend to look at things from a more individual/psychological point of view and with this class you have to look at things from a social/cultural point of view. UGH. again! I am stressed. A good thing is that all I have to worry about now is this paper and presetation and the algebra final. So far I have a 4.0 in algebra so I only have to get better than about a 76 on the final to maintain that. WOOHOO.

 

 

In honor of Shakespeare’s birth and in remembrance of his death (I guess his birth is celebrated on the date of his death, April 23rd, because his exact bday is unknown) I am going to blog some of my favorite sonnets of his. Also, I am in the Flint City Theatre’s (http://www.flintcitytheatre.com/) production of Titus Andronicus, which is a kick ass play written by Shakespeare. It has blood, revenge, rape, murder, and oddly enough, a little wicked humor. From Titus Andronicus:

Demetrius: Villain, what hast thou done?
Aaron: That which thou canst not undo.
Chiron: Thou hast undone our mother.
Aaron: Villain, I have done thy mother.

 

SONNETS

 

CXLI.

In faith, I do not love thee with mine eyes,
For they in thee a thousand errors note;
But ’tis my heart that loves what they despise,
Who in despite of view is pleased to dote;
Nor are mine ears with thy tongue’s tune delighted,
Nor tender feeling, to base touches prone,
Nor taste, nor smell, desire to be invited
To any sensual feast with thee alone:
But my five wits nor my five senses can
Dissuade one foolish heart from serving thee,
Who leaves unsway’d the likeness of a man,
Thy proud hearts slave and vassal wretch to be:
  Only my plague thus far I count my gain,
  That she that makes me sin awards me pain.

This is the first sonnet I fell in love with a long time ago. It reminded me of someone I once loved.

CXLVII.

My love is as a fever, longing still
For that which longer nurseth the disease,
Feeding on that which doth preserve the ill,
The uncertain sickly appetite to please.
My reason, the physician to my love,
Angry that his prescriptions are not kept,
Hath left me, and I desperate now approve
Desire is death, which physic did except.
Past cure I am, now reason is past care,
And frantic-mad with evermore unrest;
My thoughts and my discourse as madmen’s are,
At random from the truth vainly express’d;
  For I have sworn thee fair and thought thee bright,
  Who art as black as hell, as dark as night

I love this one. A truly lovesick poem. I love the the last line "Who art as black as hell, as dark as night" Awesome!

 

XXIX.

When, in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possess’d,
Desiring this man’s art and that man’s scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven’s gate;
  For thy sweet love remember’d such wealth brings
  That then I scorn to change my state with kings.

This one is just sweet.

LXXI.

No longer mourn for me when I am dead
Then you shall hear the surly sullen bell
Give warning to the world that I am fled
From this vile world, with vilest worms to dwell:
Nay, if you read this line, remember not
The hand that writ it; for I love you so
That I in your sweet thoughts would be forgot
If thinking on me then should make you woe.
O, if, I say, you look upon this verse
When I perhaps compounded am with clay,
Do not so much as my poor name rehearse.
But let your love even with my life decay,
  Lest the wise world should look into your moan
  And mock you with me after I am gone.

 

 

I got my cap and gown today!!! I also got my silver honor cords and honor button! Awesome!! I didn’t expect that. I can’t believe I am finally graduating. I am getting emotional. This will be my first graduation since, well, 6th grade. Yes, I dropped out of high school and later got my GED. I wish I would have went to college directly after I received my GED but I guess I shouldn’t look back. I should write a blog about being a HS drop out one day. I really think they should raise the drop out age to 18 but that is a blog for another day. "It is never to late to be what you might have been." George Eliot… Now I feel like I am finally on the right track. I have to figure out my next steps. I need to keep plowing ahead towards my Bachelors degree. Then on to my Masters and eventually my Doctorate. I think my goal is to be like Dr. McCain (my favorite professor at MCC) or like Dr. Reeves or Dr. VanEttten – they are two great counselors and instructors at MCC.

 Speaking of Dr. McCain and Psych, another good thing – ! don’t have to take my last Psych test. That is a stress relief right there. I don’t have to worry about studying. I did well on the other tests so between that and my extra credit I am getting a 4.0 – YES! So that is one thing off my list. I had a Algebra test today (mostly graphing – yuck) and I think I did all right. So that is another thing off my list. Now I just need to concentrate on my paper and presentation for the class I dislike (Reading Pop Culture), my scene for acting class, and the dreaded Algebra final. If I do well on all this I may be able to pull my GPA up from a 3.5 to a 3.7 or 3.8. I hope so.