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Yuck! I am not having a good day. It overcast today, the kind of day with oppressive steel grey clouds and I am not in the mood for it. It is irritating me and making me sad and angry. Plus the changes in temps that we have had over the week has given me an ear ache AND my stupid allergies are kicking in. Ugh and blah.

I started out the day waking up late which in itself isn’t really bad – I have nothing special to do today.I got up and had to run a couple of errands, which weren’t as bothersome as I thought they would be. I got home from running errands and my husband had spilled red juice on some on my pics I just got of my baby niece and on the cards I got him and my Dad for Father’s Day. He was in the garage when I got home and failed to tell me of the spill so I when I go in the kitchen I am greeted with the mess he half-ass tried to clean up (the damn red juice was down the wall too!!). Needless to say I was pissed and really didn’t have the proper outlet to vent my anger because I know it was just an accident. I cleaned everything up and the damage isn’t too bad but I am having trouble letting go of the anger. I am just over tired and my eyes are itching but I still think something else is bothering me. I think spilling the juice on the cards is a bad omen – I had a feeling in the store that I shouldn’t have bought them. Now this bad feeling won’t leave me. I am hoping that writing about it will banish it. That is all I am going to say about it for now and I think I will turn to happier thoughts. And a shower – maybe that will help my eyes, my allergies and my fatigue. Hopefully the sun will come out today.

“You have to take the good with the bad, smile with the sad, love what you got, and remember what you had, always forgive, but never forget, learn from your mistakes, but never regret, people change, things go wrong, just remember life goes on…”

I am always on the lookout for new ideas on what I should do once I get my undergrad degrees. I really need to make some money (though my husband, through words or actions, never makes me feel bad or guilty for not bringing much money into the household I do feel bad/guilty and I am getting tired of feeling this way) so part of me would like to find a halfway decent full-time job to work for a year or more. I just hate the thought of putting off grad school – I ain’t getting any younger. So another part of me really wants to make a push to get in either a Masters or a Doctoral program right away. I am just not sure I am up for it – it is going to take a lot of work to get in. Yikes! Just thinking about it makes me want to faint or something. Just determining exactly what I want to do, which program to pursue is driving me nuts.

Well today I found out about an online Masters program in Industrial/Organizational Psychology I might be interested in. It would be fairly easy to get in and only take 21 months to complete. My new scheme is to work full-time while working on my Masters in I/O Psychology (which the BLS says they are in demand at the Masters level) and then once I get that and save some money I can go for my PhD or PsyD. Aha!! That might be a workable plan. I must do more research.

I am trying to go through my clothes and get the winter and the summer clothes all switched around. I am about ready to say f*ck it and wear bathing suits and moo moos all summer long. AGH! I am too fat! My summer things are mostly too small. Is it really worth getting them out? I already had too many things I didn’t wear – I have tubs of summer clothes and no where to put them. Frustrated!! I have got to get rid of some of these clothes but I think “When I lose weight I will wear these again…” I definitely need to start on an exercise routine and I need to cut back on my eating. Sick of not being able to fit my clothes and I don’t want to buy more! If I lose enough weight then maybe I can get rid of most of this stuff and I know I will feel a whole lot better.

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Yay!! So thankful I got all my clothes switched around finally. Hopefully I will lose some weight by fall so the switch back might be a little easier. I have made a promise to myself to work-out everyday – at least walk on the treadmill while I study for the GRE. Next I must tackle my eating. Always something on the agenda…aaahhhh! I am wearing myself out!

I am so thankful for some coupons I got from Kroger. They sent me some coupons a few weeks or perhaps months ago and I found them again yesterday. Within the little packet of coupons were 4 free deals so I promptly went shopping and got a Dole bagged salad, a bar cheese (Vermont White Cheddar, yum!), a bag of Doritos, and some frozen veggies. All for free – no catch. I left the store with a little high, feeling like one of those extreme couponers. Yay!

Now I want more coupons. I don’t have the time and energy to go extreme but I would love to get all that I need and save lots of money. The newspaper never has any decent coupons and a cursory online search didn’t come up with much, sigh.

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Speaking of coupons, why can’t there be coupons for gas? Oh, well Kroger does have a little bit of a deal but I never spend that much there to get big money taken off my gas, plus I never rememeber to got their gas station. I am thankful gas prices are coming down a little. I hope this keeps up.

Oooooo it is a hot one today. Ugh! Usually I like hot weather but I am just not ready for it yet. We didn’t really have much of a spring – rainy and cold – and now it just jumps up into the 90’s? My Dad and I opened the pool yesterday but it will be a couple of days until it is ready. Wish we would have opened it last week but it is hard to determine when to open because of all the rain and ups and downs in temp. It is supposed to cool down again later in the week. I am about to take off to the beach today and/or tomorrow.

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My husband and I went to my cousin William’s wedding in Royal Oak, Michigan on Saturday. It was the first wedding I have ever been to where somebody fainted. The best man actually fainted during the wedding vows! Poor guy – it was because of the heat. He was ok but I am sure he was embarrassed. He made a joke of it in his wedding toast at the reception so we all got to laugh at it.

The reception was at a yacht club in Wyandotte, Michigan on the Detroit River. I didn’t realize the reception was going to be outside in a tent by the river. It was freakin’ hot Saturday and we were all just melting. My wedding was pretty hot and we had an outside ceremony but at least the reception was inside in the air conditioning (I received many compliments about my wedding Saturday too – it is gratifying that my family enjoyed my wedding and remember it – just what I wanted when I was planning). I don’t think I had ever been to an outside reception. They had to take the sides off the tent to let in what little breeze was coming off the river. It got a little nicer in the evening except for the mosquitos.

In spite of all the problems it was a nice wedding. Chuck and I had fun – the whole family had fun. At first the DJ played a lot of country music (who knew my cousin and his new bride were fans of country!) and I had little hope of dancing. My Dad and my Aunt Candy were not too happy about that either. (Yesterday my Dad was like ‘Why couldn’t the guy play some Jimi Hendrix or Stairway to Heaven…’ hahahaa – too cute).

Then the DJ started playing more my kind of music and me, Chuck, my Mom and some of my aunts and uncles got up there and shook our booties. It was fun. My aunts and uncles could not get over the fact that I knew the words to some of the old bootie shakin’ songs like Tone Loc’s “Wild Thang” and “I Like Big Butts” (a song I can’t resist hearing at every wedding now so I requested it and all the ‘youngins’ loved it). My Uncle Timmy was somewhat downcast because he said he didn’t dance very well (most of the guys just sort of bounce up and down, hehe. Well except for one of my youngest cousins Jimmy, who I learned has some stripper moves – his mom was suprised too, ha) so I grabbed him by the hips and started shaking him saying ” You have to shake your hips like this…” LOL, it was hilarious. He was surprised. My Aunts and Uncles even got my brother and Nicole out on the dance floor for a bit. Wheweee it was hot! I danced to about 4 or 5 songs in a row and about died because I am so out of shape and I was sweating my ass off but I didn’t want to stop because it was so fun. I need to get together with my family more, I need to dance more.

There’s some bootie shaken going on…

The mother of the groom, Aunt JoAnn

Love this!! Uncle Jerry and Aunt Candy