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I am always thankful for good days at work. Today was a good day. I was on the ball, customers were nice, and I managed to fly under the radar of the store manager – haha. She is so mean to everyone but there are times I am even a little thankful for her. I am even getting a raise, wahoo.

Today was also my husband’s birthday. I am thankful to have such a wonderful husband. I wish I could by him something extra special for his birthday but he will have to settle for some pants and some ‘quality’ time. My parents took us out to dinner and that was really nice – for that I am also thankful.

All that and we had a glorious sunset too.

I have not been blogging this week but I do want to keep up on writing about things I am thankful for. This week I have been thankful for my sister-in-law Kathleen for doing so much for my family in our time of sorrow (and before) and for trying to save little Angel. Also my sister-in-law CeCe for bringing food to my parent’s house. I am so lucky to have such caring family.

I am thankful for the silliness children bring even in times of sadness. My little nephews by just being little boys running around have helped to lighten moods and make laughter acceptable during a difficult time. I am thankful for the hug-i-ness and kissiness of three-year olds – my little nephew B.Brent, though a mischievous scamp, is always ready to hug and kiss people and it is lovely.

I was thankful for the beautiful sunset last night even though my little Angel was not there with me to see it. Hopefully she was watching from heaven.

I find it hard to forgive people who are consistently insensitive and arrogant. Not to mention selfish and self-centered. That is not to say that I have never exhibited these traits but let me just say that some people really know how to make the most of their bad qualities. Must be an art to it, a way of life, or is it a sickness?

I cannot discuss specifics at this time but I do want to note this stumbling block to forgiveness. I was trying to come up with a quote that sums it all up nicely but none exists. I just felt it necessary to note that the world is full of assholes, we all know this, but it is a little hard to take when your baby niece has died while these assholes continue to exist.

“The world may never notice

if a rosebud doesn’t bloom

or even pause to wonder if the petals fall too soon

but every life that ever forms

or ever comes to be

touches the world

in some small way for all eternity

the little one we longed for

was swiftly here and gone

but the love that was then planted

is a light that still shines on

and though our arms are empty

our hearts know what to do

every beating of our heart says

We will remember you.” ~ Anon.

Though a flower may not bloom,
In our hearts, we still know
The beauty of its blossom.
So it is with this tiny someone..

My baby niece Angel, March 29, 2011 – May 10, 2011. May she rest in peace.

It turned out to be a lovely day to come over to the island. I am thankful the weather turned out to be great! Rain was forecasted when my husband looked last week. I told him not to worry because the weather was sure to change before then and it did. We always seem to get good weather when we come up. Well even if it rains I still enjoy being on the island, plus rain never seems to last long around here.

We are lucky enough to be staying at the world-famous Grand Hotel.  We checked in today and went to our room to find we are in the Eisenhower Suite! It is a lovely room but no view. We have a huge canopy bed though and our own balcony. We went downtown and bought some champagne to have out there this evening. Now it is time to dress for dinner – my husband is thankful prime rib is on the menu tonight. I love the Grand! I love Mackinac Island!