Spidey Sense
My husband calls it my spidey sense. I just get this feelings about things that turn out to be correct. Sometime it is a little more than a feeling, a flash of the future, or
“something” deep inside speaks to me. It is hard to tell if it is just me, worrying, or the “something” that premonition voice. It is usually after the fact that I realize the VOICE has spoken–it wasn’t just me.
It happened this week past. I was on the road. I think it may have been Thursday when I was on the road to Wellbridge in Fenton, MI. I brushed it off, as I usually do. Now that I think of it more and place myself back into that moment, I think it was then that “something” spoke to me…
I had forgotten about it because I’ve been so busy with work and so exhausted.
I was thinking about my mom’s birthday, which was Saturday. I was thinking about sending a card. “Something” told me, “Something bad is going to happen on Saturday.” That is all I got. I dismissed it, thinking I was full of shit. The date was of no great significance that I could think of, not like 9-11 anyway. I dismissed it.
Then the shootings happened. I didn’t think about what “something” told me until today. And then, I think there was a clue.
I take Grange Hall Road to Fenton. Of Grange Hall there is a road called El Paso. Every time I pass by it and think that is an odd name for a rural road in Holly.
All I can do it just shake my head and tell myself I’m crazy.
But am I crazy for think I get some kind of signals…premonitions?
Or am I crazy for dismissing them?
Goals 2019 Progress Report
Ugh. I’ve done nada. Well, I am eating less most of the time. I think I lost a few pounds but nothing earth shattering. I have less energy now than when I wrote out my goals. I’ve been working as much as I can but that’s about it. The Cymbalta medication has not helped me. I guess it was supposed to energize me. It hasn’t. So now they are trying me on a lower dose of Cymbalta plus Wellbutrin. Yay. I haven’t started yet because I am not all that excited about it. I have been having crazy dreams lately–not sure what medication is doing that (seems to happen when I take an Ibuprofen 800 before bed) but I think Wellbutrin causes vivid dreams too. And my doctor wants to do a sleep study to see if I have sleep apnea. Ugh. Fun. I don’t think I have sleep apnea, I just have some nerve and pain issues (hips and knees, primarily) that wake me up. Not to mention a needy kitty that jumps on us in the night and tries to wake us up too early in the morning.
So yeah, just been working…I love my job, hate the pay. I really need to get serious about finding a better job and put my degrees to work. I need a job with better pay and better benefits (for me and my husband). All these damn health problems cost money. I don’t have the coverage for all these issues. The only thing I am happy about regarding my health insurance is my prescription coverage.
I keep keeping on though. I’ll keep working at it.
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