Yeah, I know that old saying, “Same shit, different day.” I know it. I don’t know why a friend chose to post a rather opaque Facebook post about work if it was the same shit…what’s it worth posting about then?
But of course, here I am, wanting to write in blog but not knowing what I want to write about other than I don’t write enough, I haven’t met my goals yet, and I am exhausted. Same shit, different day. Just not as mysterious as my friend’s post. Well, perhaps not. There are all those things I want to write about but never do, either because I lack the energy or I am afraid to delve deeper. At least on my blog.
Do you realize I have kept this blog since 2007? That is a long time. 11 years. I don’t write in it much anymore but I need to pick it back up. I wrote some good posts back in the day and it made me feel vital. I need to feel vital again.
Not that I had many readers but it helped me keep the flow going. Helped my creativity and hell, even my energy. People say exercise energizes but I think it is writing that energizes me…yet I am afraid to do it because once I start, it consumes me and I am no good for anything else. It is exhausting too–the real deep writing. It makes my body ache when I am doing it right. Just like exercise.
So, yes. I need more writing in my life, and more exercise. I am becoming more lazy with age. That isn’t that scary–I’ve always been somewhat lazy–the scary thing is, I’ve become more accepting of things…and my brain and my body seem to want to shut down, go on automatic pilot. I cannot have that. “Do not go gentle into that good night!”
“Do not go gentle into that good night!”
And,
quit accepting the same shit everyday.
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