Restless

I want to write something but I don’t know exactly what to write. Lots going on but nothing really going on…I don’t know. I guess I want something easy to write about but nothing is easy. Everything is fraught with mixed emotions and complexities I don’t feel I have the energy to do justice to in writing. Either that or it is just too fucking mundane to write about. I guess I’ll just make a list. Maybe I’ll tackle them one by one, go more in depth, maybe I won’t.

Shit that’s on my mind:

Ugh, have to make dinner.

Kids getting on my last nerve.

My stepson is getting on both me and my husband’s last nerve.

This whole Trump (I will hence forth refer to him as Dump) as president-elect.

Meryl Streep’s very eloquent take down of Dump in her Golden Globes acceptance speech.

Stupid ass Republicans and the people that vote for them.

My house, going through all the stuff, keeping it clean and organized.

Getting ready to take the CNA class.

Should I go back and finish up my Master’s degree?

Published in: on January 9, 2017 at 8:31 pm  Leave a Comment  

Resolution Report

Four days into the new year and I have done absolutely no work on my New Year’s resolutions. What were they again? HA.

Okay, okay, I remember now. The same thing I always vow. So this is me trying to write more. I don’t have much to say. I have been tired, cold, and unmotivated. My husband is sick. My nephews came back last night and there went my peace, not that I was doing anything any way.

Well I did a little something. I checked into going back to school this semester. They really aren’t offering any of the classes I need to finish up my Master’s. Ugh! I believe I have to finish that this year. I am still not sure I want to. I want to study writing…I always want to do that but I don’t need another English degree if it isn’t going to get me a decent job…

I also checked into taking a CNA class. That would get me on track to pursue a career that would help me find a job almost anywhere. My ultimate goal is to move up north–there are CNA and nursing jobs up north. I figured I’d become a CNA to see if I liked the work and go from there. My friend Tonya signed up for a class in January and turned me on to a relatively inexpensive class and it is short–only two weeks long. I have been thinking about it and thinking about it. I decided to go for it and signed up yesterday. Me and Tonya plan on carpooling to the class so it might be fun. There is supposedly a guaranteed job once you get done with the class. One can only hope. I love my co-workers at my McDonald’s job (and many of the customers) but I need to move on towards my goals, and I would like something that pays much better too. I think being a CNA will help me with that I just hope I can do the work (physically) and I hope I can enjoy it.

So I am slowly moving toward some of what I want to accomplish. Need to get my life on track. I’ve been living for others too much lately.

Published in: on January 4, 2017 at 4:04 pm  Leave a Comment