Today is the day for dreaming and planning. I finally get a day just to sit back and chill (mostly anyway). The boys are with their dad and will be for the next 10 days. Yay! So I have some time to waste…No, time to think about life and what I want out of it besides taking care of other people’s children. Life has been super busy and tiring lately. I have been working more, trying to get some bills paid off. I have started looking for a better gig, slowly. That is my plan for 2016: find a new job and go back to school. I am trying to determine my best path for now. I still want to be a counselor, still not sure which is the best route to attain that goal. But in the meantime I want to make some serious money. I might have to take a detour and train for some other career–one that will enrich my life AND my bank account, ha–then I will continue working toward my true career goals.
I know what I want to achieve long term. I pictured it on my way home from taking my husband to his teaching gig. I saw a beautiful little farm, a flock of birds with grey-tipped wings rise from a dead corn field and I felt a yearning… I want a pretty little farm. I don’t know why a farm–I don’t really want to raise a bunch of farm animals or crops. What I want is the land (lots of land), the big house with quaint porches that looks out onto rolling hills and distant forest, the big, red barn…On my farm I would take in abandoned and stray dogs and cats. Yes, I want that. I don’t want it to be here though–not so close to civilization. I mean, I guess I have to be somewhat close to civilization if I want to have a high-paying career (and help animals) but I really want to be up north. I want my farm to be in Manistee County, Michigan (or near there) closer to my parents and definitely closer to the Big Lake. I guess I’d settle for more land near my present location but it is not ideal…
And then I want a place up north. I want a place on or near Mackinac Island. It wouldn’t have to be large, just a place on the Island or on the beach. I would be happy with a place in Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, either on Lake Michigan or Lake Superior.
I don’t think that is too much to ask for, to dream for. Now how do I get there?
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