So far, so good; today has been a good day. This week so far…good. I started working more hours at work. I have a set schedule and usually just 4 hours per day. It is nice to get out of the house and away from the monotony of dishes and laundry.I never thought I’d be happy to go to work, haha. It’s McDonalds…
I suppose I am not all that happy when I go but once I am there I am fine. I like the fast pace of it and I work with some very nice people–kids mostly. Most of the customers are pretty nice too. I don’t want to do this forever (and it seems like I have–I have worked there for over 7 years now, yikes! Much more time than I planned…) but I am happy for now. My store manager gave me a thank you card for all I do 🙂 So nice, and very much appreciated. I feel like I should give him one for putting up with me. It has been a rough few years with all my family drama and stuff.
Today it was fairly slow at work so I had to work hard to stay busy. I like to stay busy. As much as I use to think a desk job was the shit (for lack of a better term), I cannot stand sitting around. I like to be on the move. I don’t know what that translates into to as far as a career for me. Physically, I cannot do food service for the rest of my life, or even a lot of being on my feet. I need to get in better shape but still, I am getting older. I guess I just worry. I think about what I want to do in ` the future to make some better money and I have trouble visualizing the perfect job for me. I still want to be a mental health counselor but that is a sit down job…even a college professor is a lot of sitting. IDK…
I get ahead of myself. I keep thinking about the future when I need to concentrate on now. After work today I went shopping. I really didn’t want to–wanted to go home and nap before the boys got home but I had to get a few things from the store. As I did my shopping, I started getting re-energized and I felt my mood lift. I was in the middle of the pasta sauce aisle when I realized I have been going around with a dark cloud over my head–and I don’t rightly know why.At that moment I realized that the cloud was clearing. I think it is because I am getting out of the house every day, not just stewing in my own thoughts. Things aren’t perfect but they aren’t that bad. I feel happy today, and I feel like I can meet my responsibilities.
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