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Found this after the fact…wish I would have seen this meme sooner but it is too funny, too true not to post.

You know, I hate to beat a dead horse (no I don’t) but I just gotta write about how much of a twit my stepson’s mother is.

My stepson has a cyst on his tailbone. He called his mother to tell her about it. She scolded him (or at least asked) why he had waited so long to get it treated. Um, to my way of thinking my stepson has not gone to the doctor or the dentist because of the way she acted over his health insurance. See he has health insurance through her; once she kicked him out and he started living with us she told him she was canceling his health insurance because he was no longer living under her roof: “Have your dad put yo on his insurance” was what she said. She didn’t cancel it but let my stepson believe she had. He only found out he still had insurance when he had to go to the hospital after being beaten up defending some friends.

Then there is the fact the kid doesn’t have a whole lot of money. Sure, he does not spend wisely but his lack of money is only exacerbated by the fact that he has a huge truck payment (his mom helped him get the truck) and he owes my husband money, in part due to poor choices he made trying to please his mother (going into the Navy) and also from her kicking him out of her house and taking back the car she had previously turned over (my stepson had paid for part of it) to him as his high school graduation gift.

Mother of the year (at least to this kid) she ain’t!

Then I think of all the child support my husband paid. You’d think some of it, a little bit, could have been put aside for the kid for a car/truck or for school (he had to pay for EMT class on his own and wants to go on to be a paramedic). Yes, I said it! I know kids are expensive but my husband paid over $600 a month in support for one kid…she was support her kid financially also (they had a 60/40 split) so I don’t think it is unrealistic or mean of me to expect that she could have been putting a little aside in savings for this kid. I am not talking big money, just a modest savings for the aforementioned classes and perhaps a down payment on a truck or housing. But no, my stepson has not received any financial help from his mother since she kicked him out (it has all fallen to my husband and I)…except she co-signed for him to get his much desired truck that he had trouble making payments on.

Okay, so that is a lot of my problem with this woman the last few years. I always thought she was a twit too, and for a lot of different reasons. But then my stepson told me this when talking about taking himself to the doctors:

“Well when I broke my collarbone I took myself to the hospital.”

“What!? You went by ambulance.”

“Well I was by myself in the back of the ambulance.”

“Huh? Wasn’t there a paramedic with you when you went in the ambulance?”

“Well yeah but I was by myself.”

“Um no, there was the paramedic and somebody driving the ambulance.”

“Well my mom said I took myself to the hospital so…”

UGH! So dumb!! Extremely stupid and twit-ish. Sure, he went to the hospital without a parent (he was a minor at the time) but he hardly “took himself” to the hospital alone. He was a teen at the time too. But because his mom told him he took himself to the hospital the paramedic and the EMT that were in the ambulance don’t count. UGH. She is such a twit…

and these are the reasons (in part) my stepson is (a) somewhat a twit at times too, and (b) does not take proper care of himself in regard to health care. He is constantly seeking approval from that dumb-ass of a mother and she keeps screwing him around one way or another.

Dishes, laundry…dishes, laundry…DISHES. LAUNDRY. Oh yeah, make food…grocery shopping…make food…”I’m hungry”…make food, breakfast, lunch (I hate lunch), dinner…”I’m starving!”…and grocery shopping again. Wash, rinse, eat, repeat….

It is all I seem to do anymore. I have ran the dishwasher every day lately. Laundry is piled up. Floors need to be swept…bathrooms need cleaning. UGH!! I never wanted to be a household drudge but there it is. Why did I even bother going to university?

But I am reading a lot more lately…I just need to focus and start writing more. I always feel like I need a big block of time to write but I need to get over it. The damn kids ruin my concentration though. Now I know why I didn’t have kids, ha. I feel like I am in prison, doing time for crimes I didn’t commit. I am innocent! Well…maybe not.

I suppose I am guilty of not really knowing what I want out of life. It’s been hard deciphering what I want to do with my life. Work doesn’t excite me, a career doesn’t excite me. Work is just a means to an end for me–to get money for what I really want. But what is it that I want? Right now it is to be left alone. I am becoming more reclusive. I would love to move way up north and not leave my house/land very much. As long as I have my husband and my books I’d be happy. So I suppose what I want is a lovely house on a lot of land far away from most people…but close enough to the beach so I can walk…it would be great if I could see a big lake from my house.

But then I’d like to travel a bit. Not all the the time but I do want to see the world. Of course I’d like to visit my favorites–Mackinac Island, Chicago, Sleeping Bear–once a year, but I’d like to travel to an new place in the United States and Canada at least once a year too. Then I’d like to see Europe; maybe take a trip to foreign lands once every few years and really be able to explore–have the time to get to know a place.

The trouble comes when I realize that I don’t have enough money right now to have what I want. But also with the realization that I do need people, that I have a drive to help people in some way. Ugh. Lately this drive, this (my) energy has been used up by my family. Sure, I have a purpose, I am a needed, useful person but somehow I don’t feel like it. I am not getting any closer to MY goals, my wants, my psychic (my ego’s?) needs.

I just hold onto a feeling that everything happens for a reason…and the wisp of thought, “All in due time…”

Woke up at 4am this morning to the sound of the door slamming. For a minute there I thought it was my nephew getting into the garage but then realized, after getting up to look around, that it was more than likely my stepson’s girlfriend leaving. Yikes! Not sure how I feel about that but I don’t think they were getting freaky last night because my stepson’s tail bone is killing him–he injured it somehow (it is a mystery) and won’t go to the doctor. I know I don’t like getting up in the middle of the night to the door slamming though…

I couldn’t go back to sleep so I took advantage of the quiet. Did the dishes, cleaned the cat box, took out the trash and then started laundry. I took a shower too.I had an ulterior motive for this. My husband is working tonight (all his paramedics are on vacation) and he was dead tired last night so…this morning I took advantage of my husband before everybody woke up. It was beyond great–can’t really describe it…well I can but this is not an erotica blog. Glad we got that time in though 🙂 It had been a while because I have been sick with a nasty cold. Now I want more…maybe I’ll take advantage of him tomorrow morning too. Well, he said something about tomorrow night. That might be better…he might be too tired in the morning. We’ll see…

If, IF I had a kid I think I might name them Mackinac, lol. I love Mackinac Island and the Straits area so much and Mackinac McGlinchey has a nice ring to it. I wonder if a kid could handle it?

It has been almost 3 weeks since we came back from Mackinac. I think it was there that I picked up this nasty cold–my neck was hurting for a full week after coming back. I thought it was all the exercise we had done but It must have been my glands because then I was sick. Oh well, I still love Mackinac Island and can’t wait to go back.

I toyed with the idea of going up there this upcoming Friday and Saturday– they are giving tours of the Round Island Lighthouse on Saturday but my husband and I will be going up that way again the first week in August for our week-long tour of the U.P. so we kind of need to save our money. Can’t wait, even though we won’t be going to the Island (I am hoping to go back to Mackinac in the fall)…we will be starting out at Tahquamenon Falls and working our way west to the Porcupine Mountains. It is going to be quite the adventure!

But as ever, I sit here Mackinac dreaming…

It has been almost 2 weeks since I have had the boys–2 weeks without children! YAY! I am getting so relaxed and almost back to my old self except for this damn nasty cold I got. Of course the boys will probably be back soon. Now I see why I didn’t have children…I probably wasn’t meant to have them because I do love my solitude.

I did wake up to the sound of someone’s bare feet sliding across my floors though–just like the boys when they wake up in the morning. My brother stayed the night because he had work closer this way than the Detroit area. I don’t know why he doesn’t stay at his own house but I was happy to have him without the kids, ha!