Yesterday I was feeling so anxious. I felt like something bad was going to happen–total unease. I couldn’t wait for my husband to get home from work…felt out of sorts because he was running late. This is so unlike me. I think my anxiety is totally due to the fact my brother hasn’t paid me for the care of his kids since December, but that is a different story.
My husband got home from work. Everything was fine but I still felt anxious. I decided to get on the treadmill for the first time in years. My husband uses it quite a bit but I don’t ever get on that thing. Last night I did and of course I couldn’t get it started…UGH! Stopped before I could get started. Not a huge help for my anxiety. The damn control panel is messed up. My husband has a way of starting it so finally I got going…
I wasn’t sure at first. I was ready to quit within the first four minutes. Everything was tight, especially my belly. This was after dinner so it was rough going. I stopped a minute to tie my shoe…
C’mon Jackie!
Yes. I got back on. I started really going on the thing. It was good too– I was smiling. Huffing and puffing but smiling. I did over 30 minutes on the treadmill and only slowed down one time in the beginning after my first little stop. It felt good. It got my endorphins hopping. I was happier when I got off. Sweaty but happy. I have never felt so good after exercising. My nephews were happy to see me exercising too, ha. What does that tell you?
Now I know I need that exercise. It was the first real exercise I have had since I don’t know when. I’ve been sitting around too much and that is not good for me. It is making my anxiety worse. I am not going to let the dam anxiety and depression run my life.
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