Jacquelyn's Space

Today is a shopping day. I spent the morning shopping. I was looking for 2 large baskets to help get my house organized. I was also looking for some tall, narrow storage cabinets and I need a new bedside lamp. No luck finding anything. I went to Lowes, Wal-Mart, and Sears. I had a $20 gift card for Sears from my mother that I got for my birthday (she couldn’t afford much but hey, I didn’t expect anything so…). I ended up buying some nightgowns– one was on sale for $7! They had some pretty dresses in Sears but I decided I didn’t need any…ha. The darn Sears cashier talked me into opening a Sears charge card. Surprisingly enough, I was approved. They must be loosing up the credit requirements again. My whole debt to income ratio is out of whack because of student loans so I truly am shocked I was approved and the amount of the card. Good thing is I got a $20 credit for opening the card so I went back and bought some slippers I was looking at. I like Sears. I know it is not a trendy place to shop but I always find some good stuff there, and they usually have great deals.

I was going to go on over to Barnes and Noble and spend the gift card my husband got me for my birthday but I pooped out; I did some book shopping online instead. I bought a bunch of fiction, a little over the gift card amount. Barnes and Noble had a clearance sale going on so I got quite a few books for the money.

I previously ordered some medium size baskets from Amazon.com so I could organize my kitchen a little bit. Now that I bought a whole bunch of new dishes I needed to rearrange things a bit. I bought 4 square baskets from Amazon to help out– 2-3 for food storage on top my fridge and dining room pantry (had to add a cabinet in the dining room for more food storage when the kids came)…and one is going in my cabinets for plastic storage. I already had another square basket so that one is going in the cabinet for plastic storage as well. I spent the afternoon rearranging all that. Now I just need to rearrange and organize a few more cabinets and shelves and I may just have everything in a proper place.

Now if only I could find some decent tall, narrow storage cabinets and some large baskets…

My husband sent me that video today, ha ha. He said just keep the fat guy away. Now he knows I like him fine just plain–straight up. No Doritos necessary. LOL.

–Another naughty anecdote.

The other night we wanted to have some quality time but the cat was in the bed (he is deathly afraid that the cat is going to bat at his delicate places). I went out to the kitchen and banged the spoons and her dish around and then I gave her some food. Of course she came running and my husband called out something like “she heard that, she’s coming.” I went back in the bedroom and told him, “Yeah, I know what brings the pussy running.” LOL.

Yesterday I was feeling so anxious. I felt like something bad was going to happen–total unease. I couldn’t wait for my husband to get home from work…felt out of sorts because he was running late. This is so unlike me. I think my anxiety is totally due to the fact my brother hasn’t paid me for the care of his kids since December, but that is a different story.

My husband got home from work. Everything was fine but I still felt anxious. I decided to get on the treadmill for the first time in years. My husband uses it quite a bit but I don’t ever get on that thing. Last night I did and of course I couldn’t get it started…UGH! Stopped before I could get started. Not a huge help for my anxiety. The damn control panel is messed up. My husband has a way of starting it so finally I got going…

I wasn’t sure at first. I was ready to quit within the first four minutes. Everything was tight, especially my belly. This was after dinner so it was rough going. I stopped a minute to tie my shoe…

C’mon Jackie!

Yes. I got back on. I started really going on the thing. It was good too– I was smiling. Huffing and puffing but smiling. I did over 30 minutes on the treadmill and only slowed down one time in the beginning after my first little stop. It felt good. It got my endorphins hopping. I was happier when I got off. Sweaty but happy. I have never felt so good after exercising. My nephews were happy to see me exercising too, ha. What does that tell you?

Now I know I need that exercise. It was the first real exercise I have had since I don’t know when. I’ve been sitting around too much and that is not good for me. It is making my anxiety worse. I am not going to let the dam anxiety and depression run my life.

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