Jacquelyn's Space

I am so fucking tired of paying for other people’s bullshit, lies, temper tantrums, and mistakes…and even their dreams and desires. Why do so many people think it is alright to make others pave the way for them, to pay for their stupidity and make life easier for them? Oh hell, I was going to ease into those statements a little. I guess my anger just flared up and got the better of me as it often does. I am just feeling a little melancholy tonight, and then a lot angry. Sadness then anger, sadness and anger.

It is said you can’t fix other people’s mistakes–oh, I have tried, and I have even tried to help other people avert a mistake and I learned the hard way that it is true, you can’t fix another’s mistake…but why I do I have to pay for them? I am sick of carrying others…

Lord knows I have made mistakes. I am not perfect. But through it all I have had to pay for my mistakes (and continue to do so) and I have endeavored to do right and to not burden people with those mistakes or all my craziness. I guess I am too hard on myself. I shouldn’t really give a shit and let everyone else pave the way for me, let everyone else pay for my mistakes and tantrums. What good is a conscience, what good is conscientiousness in this day in age?

I guess I am having a huge pity party right now. I don’t really want to feel sorry for myself, I just want to stop paying for others. I want other people to start taking responsibility for their actions. Is that really too much to ask?

No I don’t feel overly sorry for myself…I feel sorry for this world we live in where there are too many damn people that don’t have conscience, too many people that exploit others to meet their needs and desires, too many people that don’t take responsibility for themselves and their actions.

And yes this means you, my biggest fan. You ought to be ashamed of yourself but I bet you don’t even understand what the hell I am talking about. And if you get off on this post then you are just the fucking psychopath I always thought you were.

“Isn’t it interesting that each student who has given a seminar has been dismayed by his or her performance?  After a wonderfully enlightening discussion last night of Love’s Labor’s Lost, I want to say that just like the men who presented the “Nine Worthies,” each of us is vulnerable when we present or even when we speak up in such a small group.  It can be intimidating, I know.  Let’s take a lesson from Shakespeare who stresses with that play within the play that it is not only okay (but best) to be human, to expose ourselves, to express our uncertainties and limitations.  That’s the beauty of drama, and it is the beauty of teaching and learning (especially in such a small group).  The freer people feel to explore ideas that they are developing, the freer we feel to question and challenge, to suggest and encourage one another, the better our seminar experience will be.  We come in with some ideas (sometimes more than others), but we should leave buzzing with new insights and things that we’d never thought of and questions, questions, questions.  So … let’s not worry about our performances, let’s accept our humanity and just show what we’ve got. “

The wise words of Dr. Mary Jo Kietzman. I absolutely love her and my school. 🙂

Somebody has unearthed the remains of Ricahrd III under a parking structure in England! Wow!

Sometimes the things you read in the news just makes you wonder what kind of world are we living in? Why are people so horrible and mean? I have been following this story about a pastor who left a nasty message about tipping on a restaurant receipt:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/01/29/i-give-god-10-percent-tip-receipt-photo_n_2576595.html

http://www.thesmokinggun.com/documents/tipping-pastor-apologizes-687234

In short, a server at a St. Louis Applebees took a picture of a receipt with a nasty message from a Pastor. The pastor, who was in a party of 10+ and per restaurant policy her tip was automatically added to the bill, wrote on her credit card receipt, “I give God 10% so why do I have to give you 18%?” and signed her title and her name. Well a server posted the receipt on Reddit and it went viral. The pastor found out and demanded that everyone at that Applebees restaurant be fired– the server who posted the receipt was fired. This caused a shit storm of comments from people mostly siding with the server. I too side with the server as a worker in the food service industry– I know just how cheap and rude people can be. I always knew church people felt that way (as evidenced by their cheap tips and nasty behavior) but I had never seen or heard it so blatantly stated before. Why are people such jerks? And so hypocritical.

But, of course that isn’t that bad considering all the other bad news being reported. Such as:

Owner Sends ‘Gay’ Dog To Be Euthanized 

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/01/31/gay-dog-euthanized-tennessee_n_2590537.html

http://abcnews.go.com/blogs/headlines/2013/01/elton-the-gay-dog-spared-the-gas-chamber/

The owner of the dog dropped the poor thing off at a shelter to be put to sleep because he saw the dog humping another and thought it was gay. Yeah, how stupid can some people be? While this story has a happy ending (a kind person adopted the dog), it just boggles the mind how ignorant people are; how they aren’t terribly concerned with rectifying their ignorance and they certainly aren’t afraid to act on their ignorant beliefs or let them show. I also wonder why some people even get pets or have children for that matter. You gotta question what this dumb ass who dropped off the dog wants to do to gay people.

Now here is a story that made me cry:

http://www.mlive.com/news/flint/index.ssf/2013/01/flint_homes_raided_by_sheriff.html#incart_river_default

The pictures with the article– one showed a man that lived in the house walking behind an EMS worker; he had his hand on the worker’s shoulder and looked kind of frail and trusting. Poor soul! These poor people with mental conditions have no one to turn to and they get used and abused by unethical people. It is a shame. My Aunt Marlene (she was schizophrenic) was in one of those type houses in Detroit for a while because she did not have any where else to live but could not live on her own. Thankfully her house was run by a nice woman, Mrs. Griffith, that did feed and watch her charges (which is difficult I am sure). But as soon as my Mom could she got my Aunt out of there and living with family. I just think about all the people out there, those with mental issues, the homeless, that no one cares about. What kind of help do they get? Lots of times it is places like this run by mercenary people that don’t give a rats as for others; all they care about is the little bit of SSI or disability money they can get from the helpless and defenseless. Sure let the mentally ill live in squalor. No one cares anyway.

And of course these stories are by no means the worst of the news.

What kind of cesspool are we living in?