I am so fucking tired of paying for other people’s bullshit, lies, temper tantrums, and mistakes…and even their dreams and desires. Why do so many people think it is alright to make others pave the way for them, to pay for their stupidity and make life easier for them? Oh hell, I was going to ease into those statements a little. I guess my anger just flared up and got the better of me as it often does. I am just feeling a little melancholy tonight, and then a lot angry. Sadness then anger, sadness and anger.
It is said you can’t fix other people’s mistakes–oh, I have tried, and I have even tried to help other people avert a mistake and I learned the hard way that it is true, you can’t fix another’s mistake…but why I do I have to pay for them? I am sick of carrying others…
Lord knows I have made mistakes. I am not perfect. But through it all I have had to pay for my mistakes (and continue to do so) and I have endeavored to do right and to not burden people with those mistakes or all my craziness. I guess I am too hard on myself. I shouldn’t really give a shit and let everyone else pave the way for me, let everyone else pay for my mistakes and tantrums. What good is a conscience, what good is conscientiousness in this day in age?
I guess I am having a huge pity party right now. I don’t really want to feel sorry for myself, I just want to stop paying for others. I want other people to start taking responsibility for their actions. Is that really too much to ask?
No I don’t feel overly sorry for myself…I feel sorry for this world we live in where there are too many damn people that don’t have conscience, too many people that exploit others to meet their needs and desires, too many people that don’t take responsibility for themselves and their actions.
And yes this means you, my biggest fan. You ought to be ashamed of yourself but I bet you don’t even understand what the hell I am talking about. And if you get off on this post then you are just the fucking psychopath I always thought you were.
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