My husband and I saw my stepson off to boot camp today. He was sworn into the Navy this morning and boarded a bus to where he will be training– about 5 hours away from us in another state. On the whole I would have to say I am excited for him and proud. I was only a little sad today. I feel like he is ready though.
I started to cry a little bit at the ceremony and as we said our goodbyes but I gave myself a mental slap so I wouldn’t become a blubbering idiot– not good for the kid (he will always be a kid to me) to see that. I told myself to straighten up and it is always comforting to hide behind a camera. 😉 I had my tears yesterday after I dropped him off at the recruiters office (so they could take him to get ready to go to boot camp); As I did a little grocery shopping I cried and hoped that no one noticed. I thought about all the time that has passed, the little boy I met years ago. How can it be that he is 18 already? And that he is moving away?
But then I had to collect myself because I’m one tough broad, ha… I am truly happy and excited for my stepson too. He is doing something that he wants to do, something good for his future. It will be an adventure! I kind of envy him. With so many changes happening in my life over the past 16 months or so, this is one of the more positive situations I have had to deal with. No need to get all silly and maudlin about over it. Of course one must acknowledge one’s emotions…but one must manage them too, even if they are a mixed up mess. Ha. I try.
It helped that my husband and I got to see our son before he left, and even that he lived with us these last months. We had dinner with the kid last night, had a few laughs. It was great to see him off today. Now I can’t wait to see him in his uniform and can’t wait to find out where he will be going.
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