Jacquelyn's Space

I have got to get my focus. I have a big paper to write by tomorrow night and I want to get it done but I don’t have any focus today. I kinda’ know what I want to write but you just never know what problems you might run into once you get into it, plus I alway underestimate the time I need to write a paper.

I took way too many classes this semester. I stayed up all-night last night working on a papers so that may be why I don’t want to focus today. I did get sleep but my brain is tired, ha. I have 3 more papers to write – 1 long (10 pages) and 2 short (2000 words or less – piece of cake). Well, the pages I can write but the ideas, the paper topics are more complex. I just need to push through. I will be up all night tonight to probably. That’s okay, I work third shift tomorrow so my sleep schedule will be adjusted for it.

My husband came home from work today with a big, white box. I asked him what the heck he had – I thought it was donuts, LOL. He said “It’s a gift….Benson got you a gift.” What? Benson is his boss and I never expected to get a gift from him – a bonus for my husband would be nice. Benson gave me a Coach purse and a wallet – it is really nice. Totally unexpected.  I will have to send him a thank you note.

Someone came knocking on the door this evening. I had just gotten out of the shower, and my husband was getting pizza. I heard somebody knocking and of course the dog runs toward the door. I wasn’t going to answer but the he knocked again and louder. Grrrr. I wasn’t too happy. I kinda’ figured it was the neighbor and I knew what he wanted to – our back light shines in his bedroom window. He came over a few weeks ago to ask us to move. I let my husband know but he has been working so much that he hadn’t has a chance to move it – I wasn’t going to mess with it.  I just tried to keep the light off out back, but last night I let the dog out and forgot to turn it off. I felt bad…

Well the neighbor was complaining about the light again. He was nice about it but I wanted to ask him – dude, have you ever heard of a shade? Ha, we had to get one for our room because neighbors two or three houses down put up a garage in back and put a big ole light on it that stays on all night long. I didn’t say anything much  because I was aggravated and felt that if I said something I would have went off. So I just tell him I will remind my husband, sorry, bye. Oh, but he wasn’t done – could we please keep our dog quiet in the morning. What!? After all these years of listening to their little yippy dog bark incessantly …yeah, I’ll try buddy. I just said okay and shut the door – I was in a damn towel for God’s sake. Grrr. Ryder does bark a lot but not as much as some dogs and I don’t know what we can do to stop him besides muzzle him. I don’t know how I feel about that.

Speaking of muzzle…

It seems that my blog has become very popular today, over 20 visits today. I was looking over my posts to see what could be so interesting. I mean the stuff I write is interesting to me but I am not conceited enough to think that my posts would attract 20+ visitors -all within two windows of time, mind you. I was looking at all the posts they looked at and it was kind of nice to go back a remember my trip to Mackinac and last year’s  Thanksgiving – thanks for sending me back there. I just wonder what is up, and why this person is so interested, yet can never talk to me, or even post back or something. Weird.

I am so happy – my To Do list is getting shorter. I still have a lot of stuff to work on it seems my papers always take me longer than I plan for but I am hoping for the best.

I have been up for over 24 hours and writing my ass off today. If only I could write my ass off  – wouldn’t that be something? If it were possible I would be quite thin by now because I have written a small novel this semester. If only it all went to together and formed a cohesive whole. Hey, perhaps that’s an idea. My new novel:

Once Crazy Semester: What Do Shakespeare, Modern British Literature, Virginia Woolf, Creative Non-Fiction, Rhetoric and a Trombone Have In Common?

ME!!

Entirely too long for a title, damn.

All those classes were connected in many ways, believe it or not. I am actually very, very sad the semester is ending soon. It has been rough but I have learned tons, and I have had lots of fun.

Like tonight for example. I had to push through the last day of classes and try to write as much as possible. Then I came home and had to write some more. I had an essay due for Modern British Lit and no idea what to write about, so of course I am chatting on facebook. A couple of my friends from that class were on and we were all in the same boat – not wanting to write this last essay. Talking with them, and my girls from Virginia Woolf seminar (we all have a final research paper we are working on  and are not really inspired) really bolstered me up to push through the evening and get my essay done.

Then once I posted it, 2 minutes to midnight, my friends were back on facebook just finished from posting their essay. Ha, we were all happy to have that done so we were goofing off. It was nice to blow off some steam. We were actually debating whose essay was the crappiest, ha. My friend Melanie shared her essay and it is beautiful –  fresh and inspiring are the words that came to mind while I was reading it. I just know the professor is going to love it.

So that is why I am sad the semester is ending. Not only have I learned lots and enjoyed it, but I have had such wonderful people in my classes – loving, nurturing people and I am honored to have shared a class with them, honored tha they have shared their writing with me and have allowed me to share my writing, or my silliness. I hope next semester is just as wonderful.

I played for graduation Sunday and  I got a little melancholy as I always do. I don’t really want to graduate. I do, but I want to stay on campus. I just love meeting new people, good people, and sharing ideas. I hope I will be able to work on campus one day.

I actually knew quite a few people graduating but two wonderful girls that are in Psi Chi with me graduated – I was in a great class with them last year. I still miss that class because it was really fun, filled with friendly people, nurturing people. I am going to miss my two girls…

Now that I that I think about it they, and that class, the group I was in for my research project inspired me. They inspired me to try to create that warmth in my other classes and I think it paid off this semester. That and finally getting some medication that helps me with my chronic fatigue.