Jacquelyn's Space

Don’t you hate it when you wake up way too early and can’t get back to sleep? That has been my morning – woke sometime in the 5 o’clock hour and could not go back to sleep. I laid in bed for an hour then decided to get up. I have checked my mail, my facebook, the newspapers/news/articles, eaten, picked up a little bit around the house, tried to do a little organizing, played a couple of games, studied for the GRE a little and just now I am getting tired. I feel like writing but don’t know what to write…well I am feeling a little too tired and out of it to tackle any serious topics. I think I should go back to bed and get some more sleep.

Ha, so my stepson comes over and starts jamming to some house music. I love it! One of the songs samples an old school jam, Rockwell’s “Somebody’s Watching Me” LOL Double love it because that used to be one of my favorites songs when I was in 5th/6th grade or so, plus I love house music – makes me want to dance (that is what comes from going to all the hottest gay bars in Detroit in the 90’s, ha ha) and move. It is making me hyper! This ‘new’ or at least new to me DJ (I think – not a group, just one dude) is called Deadmau5.

http://youtu.be/EZAyvA2-KE4

Thankful to be on vacation. So thankful that I actually stayed awake this morning and made my husband a lovely breakfast before he was off to work.

Made it through another week of working third shift – well this week I didn’t have as many hours as last because I had a long week-end which I squandered away. Unfortunately it has been pretty uneventful around here. I guess not uneventful but kind of ‘same ole, same ole’ if you know what I mean. Hung out at the pool with my nephews, listened to my Mom bitch, bilateral earaches, more bitching… ha

One good thing is the renovation of our home office is just about done. My husband painted and we bought some cabinets and a counter top to make one long desk with two work spaces. It is pretty cool. I figure if I ever have a baby the desk can become a changing table, hehe. I just love the color I picked out – it is a lavender and is called enchant, ooo la laaa. It is enchanting and I hope to hang a bunch of my scenic pictures on the walls in here. Next project is to paint my bathroom.

Starting today I am on vacation. My husband and I had hoped to do something exciting and/or new but it would cost too much and be too stressful to do what we really wanted to do which was to go camping in the U.P. (Upper Peninsula Michigan). We kinda planned on going up to my parents house which is not too far from Lake Michigan. My husband and I love going there but the weather is not going to be ideal so we are not sure what we want to do. May end up at my parents place but I really want to get in some beach time and if the weather is too cool or it is rainy it kind of sucks for us (thinking more of my stepson who will be on vacation with us). It is often more a relaxing time rather than an exciting time up in old Kaleva. Don’t know what to do…

So other than that I have attempted to start studying for the GRE. I received some new study materials and also intend to make use of the stuff I already have though it is geared more towards the old test. I have already learned much from the GRE website. I just have a lot of studying to do; a ton of math review because I have forgotten a lot of it from disuse. I also have to practice my writing because there is two analytical writing tasks on the test in which you only get 30 minutes per task to complete. ETS (the makers of the GRE) list all the questions on their website and I was thinking of tackling some of the questions within this blog to practice. The only bad thing is there is like 90 pages of questions between the two tasks! I am scheduled to take the test at the end of September and 3 months goes by pretty quickly. Yikes!!

So not sure how this vacation is going to go with me being kind of stressed and everything up in the air.

Perhaps quote of the last decade or more, LOL.

“Every time I see you, you make me wish that birth control was retroactive.” ~ Redd Foxx as Fred G. Sanford.

Love it!!

I have often pondered the unfairness of life. All the injustices, big and small. I have always hated that saying “Nobody ever said life was fair.” Ugh! Life isn’t fair and I guess it is naive to think that it could/should be – it would be a mammoth task to achieve fairness for everyone, especially when nobody is interested. It is just sad that so many rotten people get away with all the rotten things they do (big and small) and so many people get away with being snakes in the grass so to speak (sorry snakes) and never get called out on it. It seems bad behaviour reigns supreme these days and people let most of it slide because that is just the way we are – let it be someone elses problem or it usually has to do with money. Lets all bow down and accept shit from people because of the almighty dollar. Just sick of it! When does it all end? When do we start standing up and fighting unfairness and injustice in our lives – the big and the small – to help make people better, to help make this world a better place? Not necessarily ‘fair’ but at least an overall better place.

I am pondering what I should do about the GRE – should I take it in three weeks or should I wait and take it in the fall or later? The test is changing and some say the new version is harder. This is frustrating!! I wish I had taken it already but I did not have the time to fit it in. I meant to study this summer and take it in July but I did not get off to a good start in May so now I feel I am up against the wall with only three weeks to study. Is three weeks really enough time to prepare for the GRE? For me, probably not. I worry about the math. But if I wait I may end up having to buy new study materials (all my study materials are for the old test) and have to deal with an even harder test (harder math), UGH. Plus it may push my goal of going to grad school back. Grad school! That is a whole other mess of questions that I haven’t answered yet.

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Yay! I have made my decision. I decided to wait and take the revised GRE. I have scheduled myself a September test date and I bought some new test prep materials, one that even focuses on my weak spot math. Now I must get to studying. Next decision is which 4 schools do I want my scores sent to?