Jacquelyn's Space

I am up on the third floor of the library at school – my favorite perch for blogging. I came up to school to talk to an advisor again to make sure I was all set to apply for a dual degree. Everything checks out,  I only need 7 more classes and I will have all the requirements and enough credits to get a BS in Psychology and a BA in English. I just need to work my ass off next school year and make sure everything goes well.

I was sort of upset this past Sunday when I realized it was graduation day and I could have been graduating! I wasn’t in symphony band this semester so I didn’t even get to play for graduation. I missed it though it would have been pretty strenuous playing for two ceremonies. But today I was thinking how good it is going to feel walking across that stage to receive 2 degrees. It is going to feel pretty awesome!! I just need to lay the groundwork this summer for a successful school year next.

I am soo silly — I didn’t realize I took 17 credits winter semester! LOL, final grades (which I am proud to say I earned 5 A’s and 1 B — that’s right, six classes!)  are finally up today and it took looking over my final grades to make me realize exactly how much I took on. Thank God it was a good semester for me. Thank God it was not another semester like in the fall when I was sick and run down all the time. It was an awesome semester too.

So the semester is over. My last exam was last Tuesday (Wahoo, I got an A in cognitive psych!!) and I have been trying to de-stress ever since. I am almost relaxed. I miss my classes and fellow students already though. Plus I keep thinking of all the things I want and need to do still. I am not taking spring and summer classes but I do want to practice my writing to gear up for next school year. I still need get more research experience and become comfortable with research design, statistics, and PASW/SPSS software. Ugh, not to mention studying for the GRE. I also have other things besides school work and studying I want to work on like getting my house in order, getting in shape, and looking for a new job.

Wow, so much to do so little time. I guess I don’t really have the time to relax.

Yay.

Excuse me for not being overly excited. Does this mean the United States troops are coming home? Probably not.

Plus it only took 10 years or more – really how many years was this asshole out in the world terrorizing people before 9/11? Yeah…

How many more are like him out there, ready to jump in his place? I read a headline somewhere that killing bin Laden was like chopping the head off a snake – the snake still moves. I could not help but to think of the mythical Hydra – every time Hercules cut one of his snake heads off, two grew back in its place.

Don’t get me wrong I am glad he is dead, glad ‘we’ finally got him but its not rockin’ my world and you aren’t going to see me partying it up today. Sorry to be such a negative Nancy.

My thanks to all the troops and intelligence agents involved in his capture and I hope they are getting a well deserved celebration and commendations.

I am glad the United States is having a happy day today but for me I can’t help but to think of all the lives lost because of this nut job, chasing this nut job plus all the dollars spent chasing after him or the so called ‘weapons of mass destruction’ not to mention rebuilding infrastructure in other countries while our own crumbles. As I write now I find myself asking the question “What has chasing after bin Laden and finally killing him really gotten us?”

Then I see my local newspaper running a story about tenuous connections to 9/11 and fighting bin Laden. So is that it? We finally earned some relief and perhaps the right to feel pride and pat ourselves on the back because we were moved by that day or because of some small connection to that day, to people who actually served, some giving up their very lives… This all makes me kind of angry and sad.

Sure its great he is gone but there is much work still to be done and many more lessons to be learned that perhaps should have been learned a long time past.