Jacquelyn's Space

Ha ha, did you ever notice how many things rhyme with station? Frustration, irritation, procrastination… I am experiencing all those today. Maybe I need so meditation…some fornication would be nice too.

I am trying to plan out my classes for next year, for my degree in English. I would even like to take a few more psychology classes. Well half the course catalog isn’t being offered for English; from what I here it is because they don’t have the professor to teach it. It is very frustrating because all the classed I am interested in are the ones not being offered. I tend to gravitate more toward British Literature between the late eighteenth century and the late nineteenth century. That is what I like to read and what I learn best from. Of course there is no on to teach them. I also can deal with early American Lit and I would love to learn more about Women’s and Ethnic Lit. Either those classes don’t fit my schedule (or conflict) or they aren’t needed for the degree. I am frustrated and irritated! I am stuck with Modern American and Modern British Lit, a playwriting class or a business writing class – bore me! Oh I suppose I should take that back, there probably is something that will interest me but it is not what I really want.

Then I am also disappointed – the psychology department is not offering much of anything new that I can take. Not in spring, summer, or fall. UGH! There is one class I can take but that is far away on another campus. Truly the course offerings are slim pickings. What the __? So I am on my own. I am truly thinking about what I would have to do to either transfer to UM -Dearborn or even apply to Ann Arbor for my English degree. It just seems like a lot of work when all I need are eight more English classes to complete my second degree.

Then I think all this might be for naught because if I get the job I interviewed for I won’t have the time.

Yesterday was National Nap Day but I was unable to celebrate. I had to work in the morning, class in the afternoon, and then it just didn’t seem right to nap in the evening. I think the changing season is doing a number on me physically – I had the aches and my sinuses were acting up yesterday. Today I have earaches in both ears. Not nice. I really need a nap today though. I am sleepy although I had nice sleep last night. I can’t though – I to go to class. I skipped the first part of my day because of the stupid earaches. I wish I could skip the rest and nap. This blog post is pretty nap inducing, ha ha.

To spice it up a bit: I guess yesterday was also National Steak and BJ Day too, ha. I read some DJ or blogger started it as the men’s Valentine Day. Oh geez…

Ugh! That is all I feel like doing lately is eating. Eat eat eat. I need to stop. I need to start eating healthier and I need to go back to the gym. I got off track at the end of last semester with going to the gym because I was stressing out about all the papers I had to write – when I was at the gym I felt anxious thinking about all the other stuff I should be doing. I tried to get back into this semester but I have been lazy – and then there is eating. I would rather go to lunch then go to the gym, haha.

I intend to start eating healthier and go back to the gym. I need to do something about my obesity – learning all about obesity and its effects on the body is scary. I want to be healthy and of course I want to look better. I am not the type of person that looks good fat. Some women look beautiful fat just not me. And I am sick of not finding clothes that fit right! Ha, so I need to quit procrastinating about this and do it. Graduation is right around the corner, somewhere, and I want to look good.

Sometimes a quote can say it better when you don’t have time or patience to explore (by writing) what you are feeling. Five great quotes of the day:

Veritas odium parit

False words are not only evil in themselves, but they infect the soul with evil.

~ Plato

Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth.

~ Franklin Roosevelt

The greatest of faults, I should say, is to be conscious of none.

~ Thomas Carlyle

The stupid neither forgive nor forget; the naive forgive and forget; the wise forgive but do not forget.

~ T. Szasz

Lies and conceit are not my faults – those belong to someone else. The inability to forgive, that one I can claim. I refuse to be naive and since I do not think of myself as stupid I must work on being wise.

“My life is an open book, but don’t expect me to read it to you.”

~David Hyde Pierce

I love that quote. It has that cute little twist at the end. I have always tried to live my life that way – open and honest. I think it is the best way to be. My only mistake is thinking that most people are like me when some are not. There are a lot of people out there that try to lie and manipulate, try to hide their true intentions, who they really are. I see them, I see through them, I pity them.

Well someone is certainly living up to their expectations. Like most everybody I usually like to be right but there are some times when I wish I were proved wrong.

Despite being proved right when I wish I would have been wrong (in this particular situation) it was a pretty good day after I got done with school. The weather has been making me sluggish but I slogged through the day with the help of some friends.

The bright spot of my school day – I skipped Cognitive Psy and had a lovely chat with a friend; she brightened my day considerably. We are hoping to be officers in Psi Chi next year (if we are still around) and we were trying to size up the competition. She wants to be president (or at least vice president) – so would I for that matter but I would step aside for her and be happy with treasurer or secretary although I hate taking notes. Some dude we never heard of wants to run for president and we were trying to figure out who he is, and if he is qualified, ha.

Tonight my husband and I went to my stepson’s band concert. I didn’t really feel like going because of the aforementioned sluggishness but we went. I was disheartened when I saw that the choir was going to sing too. I was hoping the concert wouldn’t be long so could get back home and chill. My expectations for the evening were very low.

My stepson is in symphonic band so he always plays last. Their performance was good. They have a competition coming up next week so this was kind of a dress rehearsal. Watching them perform made me miss being in band – I’ll have to get out my trombone and practice.

The choir and some vocal soloists performed. The choir was OK, not my favorite, some of the soloists were good but a few were very nervous and almost quit singing in the middle of their performances. One poor girl finished her song and left the performance area in tears – I don’t know why though, she wasn’t bad. I wanted to help her finish her song =) She sang “Caro Mio Ben” and it too made miss singing lessons. I sang that song when I was taking voice lessons … well shoot is has been over 10 years now!

After the concert my husband and I went to dinner at one of our old haunts and ran into a couple of friends there. It was a nice way to cap off the day, chatting with old friends about old times with a little bit of politics talk and silliness thrown in.

So there I was a proved wrong. I expected the evening to be boring at the very least -I didn’t expect much from the whole day really- but it turned out to be lovely.