I am excited to start school again but I don’t think I am ready for all the hard work. I took a light load this semester. Well, so I thought. We’ll see how light it actually is. I have Spanish 3 days a week, a creative writing class, symphony band, and an online psychology class – statistics and probability.
I had to take a foreign language for a requirement and I love languages anyway. It was either Chinese or Spanish given the way the U.S. is headed these days. I chose Spanish – I believe it to be easier than Chinese to learn. Class seems like it will be easy – no papers to write and I know some Spanish. I also have 2 years of French so I am sure some of the words/grammar are similar.
Of course the creative writing class will be a challenge – all writing. The biggest challenge to me in that is coming up with ideas and actually being able to sit myself down and write out what I want…Always too many draws on my time and concentration, not to mention my ever present fatigue. The prof seems nice but a little strict – he actually said that if you are too ill to attend class and do the writing, then you are too ill to be in school. I can see that but I also think "WTF? Is a person supposed to just wither away and die then?" I mean what if a person never feels good? They are not supposed to pursue a life? Maybe I am taking it too far but that is what I feel sometimes – yeah I don’t feel good much of the time and my ass is dragging but I am dragging it – I want to get somewhere no matter how bad I feel and it helps if understanding people help me out along the way.
Stats and probability – yuck! I have to take it, it is a requirement for my major so I figured I would get it out of the way. It seems like it will be challenging. I would have rather taken a face to face class and not an online class but they did not offer one on my campus this semester so I am going to give it a try. Wish me luck.
I was most excited about joining the school band this semester. I signed up for symphony band because I miss performing. I used to play trombone in high school, oh 20 years ago. I have a trombone and I can still play so I thought band would be fun. I started class today – not so excited anymore. I was somewhat nervous and I had not practiced as much as I wanted to before I started. I am not strong at music reading, I used to have to hear a piece first and then practice it. Well I go to class apprehensive. I totally sucked. First we did some exercise I had never done before, the teacher was talking nonsense. Then we start working on music, Yeah, I still sucked. I am thinking what have I gotten myself into? Yikes. Well I talked to the band director and he doesn’t seem too concerned so I am still going to give band a try. I just need to practice, practice, practice. Work, work, work
Today I also attended University Chorale. I am seriously thinking about joining. I am not sure though – I don’t want to load up on too much. I just miss performing and between band and chior I might be able to majorly improve my music reading skills.
So another year begins. I feel like I am too much out of my comfort zone, unsure if I can meet the challenges. This can be good or it can all come crashing down on me.
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