Sore and Annoyed

I am so sore! I went to rehearsal Thursday night. I am a soldier in the play "Titus Andronicus". I thought it would be easy – walk on stage, stand a little bit, walk off. UM no. We have heavy swords we have to carry and all these movements/salutes we have to do. Yikes! The swords are like 10 – 15 pounds. My right arm hurts and my rectus femoris muscles (we have to kneel in one of the salutes). There are three other females in the army and we were joking that we are going to have some big right arms when all this is done. We are going to look crazy – out of proportion. A Popeye arm on the right and a little left arm.  I will have to start working out. It is fun though. The director keeps saying we are going to look badass. hahaha. I know we are going to get chain mail. Awesome!
 
Today I am trying to figure out what the hell Jean Baudrillard means when he is talking about Simulation. It is for the class that I hate. I am so annoyed with this crap. I guess I am not the deep thinker I thought I was.  This shit is philosophical BS. I tried to take a philosophy class last winter semester, "Lies, Deception, and Bullshit", to get a better grip on why so many people lie and BS their way through life. I ended up dropping the class because we spent too long trying to define exactly what lies, deception and bullshit are. It made my brain hurt, plus I was bored. Plus there were a lot of people in the class that talked just to hear the sound of their own voice – that is my definition of bullshit. Haha, well one of them anyway. So this class, "Reading Pop Culture" is reminding me of that. UGH! Not what I signed up for. This Baudrillard guy is trying to say that nothing is real, we are all just simulations and our world is a simulation. OK, certainly some of our lives are simulated – maybe quite a bit but sickness (most of the time) and death are real aren’t they? If you get hit by a bus – that’s real isn’t it? And he is talking about signs. Aah geez, I don’t even want to get into that. I am frustrated, needless to say. This class is going to Flub (you know I meant another F word) me up. I wanted all 4.O this semester. Dammit. Not with this class.
 
One bright spot – I got an 89 on my psych test. Awesome! The class average is around 69%. That sucks, but it is getting a little better. Did I stress how hard Dr. McCain’s tests are? I feel drained of everything after I take her tests. I hope my study buddy did well.
 
Published in: on March 29, 2008 at 4:24 pm  Leave a Comment  

My excitement for today…

I had lunch today at the cafe at school. There was some special event going on and the cafe was packed. I got a table but I ended up sharing my table with a speech professor, the Dean of the Business Dept and his secretary. That was interesting. It was a fixed menu so you had to take what you got. It was a spinach chicken salad with bacon and vinagrette dressing. It also had cavier. I do not eat seafood but I did try the cavier out of curiosity. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t anything special. The salad was very good.
 
I had a psychology test today. It was very hard. I hope I did all right. There were a few things that I saw on the test that I did not study very well. Dammit! I am so drained now.
Published in: on March 26, 2008 at 11:54 pm  Leave a Comment  

Busy, Busy

I have been so busy lately, and so tired. I have not had the time to blog. Actually, I felt a little more energized today than I have been so I worked on cleaning the house. I have been dragging lately. It has been so frustrating and stressful. Other than that it has been a good week.
 
Last Wednesday I got my scene for acting class. It is our final project – we have to do a scene with a partner. I got a good partner, Steve, and our scene is very interesting. I am a Human Resource person (and maybe dominatrix) who is interviewing this guy for a position in the company. I use him as my personal plaything. It is going to be very challenging for me because I have to be sexy, and act like I am having an orgasm . Yikes! I have not been feeling very sexy lately because I am the fattest I have ever been, so this is going to very hard. But this is good. I like a challenge. My monologue was not much of a challenge so now I get my chance to shine.
 
I made a new friend Wednesday at school (from acting class) and we had lunch at the cafe. Phil, my new friend, is planning on going to U of M Flint. He wrote in his blog that he is excited to be getting ready to transfer to U of M but he feels at home at Mott – he is starting to make friends and teachers are noticing him. I feel the same way. A good thing is that we know each other now, we can pal around at U of M and maybe the transition won’t be so hard. He has already been accepted. He said I should have no problems getting in with my GPA (3.5 and climbing). I am still thinking about other options though.
 
My husband and I got to keep his son overnight on Thursday because he did not have school on Good Friday. It is nice to have some extra time with Jordan. He got to pal around with his cousin Danny a lot this week-end. Chuck and I gave him one of his Easter gifts early – a game he has been wanting forever. Chuck and I had to go to 4 stores to track it down it time for Easter. Well now he has it and he spent Thursday night yelling at it the game. I guess it is a lot harder than he remembered.
 
We took the boys to a laser show at the Planetarium Saturday. I think they had fun. Chuck and I enjoyed it. It was laser lights set to Jimi Hendrix music and then they did Led Zeppelin. Blast from the past – it was cool. Or maybe I should say groovy dude.  The funny thing was the Planetarium staff made an anouncement that there was "no smoking of any substance allowed, if you are caught smoking you will be asked to leave immediately – no questions asked." haha, I bet they get some people smoking weed. This week-end they have a Pink Floyd laser show. http://www.longway.org/
 
Sunday we spent with my husbands family. We had dinner with all the usual trimmings. I made beans and everybody raved over them. We stopped by my parents house afterwords. My nephews were there. I have three nephews, Kenny age 4, Alex who will be 2 in July, and lil Brent who will be 1 in July. They are all so cute. The two youngest seem a lot calmer than Kenny. My poor SIL has her hands full though, with 3 so young.
 
Yesterday I had my first rehearsal for the play I am in – Shakespeare’s "Titus Andronicus". It is with the Flint City Theatre. It was interesting. We read through the whole play. I am only a soldier. I just wanted to get my feet wet onstage again. I did a lot of plays in high school but that has been almost 20 years now. I miss performing and it is good to be around theatre people again. Everyone is so interesting, talented and nice. It should be fun. http://www.flintcitytheatre.com/
 
Psych class has been interesting. I have a test tomorrow though and have not felt like studying one bit today. I have to get back to it though. I just felt like blogging real quick. It has relaxed me. I was feeling stressed earlier because I got some bad news. Now I feel better. More later.
Published in: on March 26, 2008 at 1:52 am  Leave a Comment  

Liars

I was listening to a radio show tonight while going to pick up my husband from work. It was about a study that was done on people that lie. Their brains were scanned and it was shown they have more white matter in their brain than a person who does not lie or at least does not tell a lot of lies. It was very interesting. I wish I knew the name of the show. It was all about lying and liars. It was on one of the public radio stations. I looked up some articles about the study:
 
 
 
Published in: on March 19, 2008 at 1:23 am  Leave a Comment  

Talking about Bored with your life? Bid on this guy’s – Internet – MSNBC.com

 Wow, this sad, interesting and brave all at the same time. 

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Bored with your life? Bid on this guy’s – Internet – MSNBC.com

Published in: on March 19, 2008 at 1:07 am  Leave a Comment  

Why I went back to school…

Now that I am about to graduate with my Associate’s Degree I am thinking about the next phase of my education. I also have been looking back at how far I have come, what my inspiration was for going back to school.
 

INSPIRATION

 

There were three things that inspired me to go back to school in 2006.

 

First, my sister in law, Cecelia, graduated in 2006 with her associate’s degree. I remember watching her graduate and feeling very proud. She made it! I also felt I should be going to school, I should be graduating. That graduation inspired me. She is an inspiration herself because she was able to succeed in school while being a wife and mother of 2 kids plus a few other problems she overcame that I won’t go into detail about.

 

Second, well I am not sure this is an inspiration; maybe, in a negative sense. I hated my job at the time. I was working at an ambulance service doing office work and billing. I thought it would be my dream job but it was not. I found out I hate sitting around an office, doing paperwork. YUCK! I guess there were some aspects of the job I liked but it was not enough. I had to do something different.

 

Third, and this is pretty silly. I was sitting around playing “The Sims 2”. You can have your sim people go to college. So I was playing the game, had a sim in college and I thought, “WTF? Why the hell am I sitting here wasting my time pretending to be in college? I should actually go!” So I went. You can inspiration from the strangest places and circumstances.

 

MORE DECISIONS TO MAKE

 

I had started college a few years ago, so I already had some credits. That made it a little easier to start again. I quit going to school back then because I had to work while going to school and I couldn’t do it. I was not strong enough; my health was not good enough. I actually had to drop a whole semester (winter semester – darn cold) because of my CFS and fibromyalgia. I am so thankful that this time around I am strong enough. I also have more direction than the last time. Last time I wasn’t quite sure which degree to pursue (I had all kinds of thoughts/ideas running around in my head; mostly about how I can make some good money). I was scared that I would not have the energy to go into psychology. Although, when I went back in 2006 I still wasn’t sure, I soon decided that I would pursue a degree in counseling (whether it is through psychology or social work). I said to hell with it! I am going for it. Now that I am about to complete the first phase of my education, I need to decide which school I want to go to and exactly which bachelor degree I want. I have always wanted to go to U of M Flint but now I am having second thoughts. I can go to Rochester College right at my community college campus. It would be cheaper and I would still have classes with Dr. McCain, my favorite prof. She says the Rochester program for Counseling Psychology is a good one. I certainly think it would be easier for me to stay on the Mott campus but I can’t give up the U of M dream. I have much to research and ponder.

Published in: on March 18, 2008 at 3:37 pm  Leave a Comment  
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